2 MILES

Ask me how I define love?

By what? Declaring yourself as a person whom cant get enough of sleeping at night, can never get full of having even 5 meals at a time, cant think of anything else than your boyfriend? Or its just apparently there’s a guy who seems to confessed he loves you and lets be together forever lalalalaa

As for me, when I first dated my boyfriend, I didnt see myself oh I’m drowning in ocean of love, no. It was me who confessed it at first, that I was sorta.. cant lose him in whatever condition. I didnt say I loved him, nor I like him. All I did was admitting my life apparently, seems complete with his company, and I totally comfortable with it, and cant seem to lose it. Cos that was what I certainly feel at that moment, at the very early stage of our friendship, after almost a month. Thank God I didnt have to rub my own shit onto my face, that he replied something positive to my confession. Yeepppaa!

We went through so-called first stage of everything, with the awkward feeling and sorta. He started to call me with lovely names, and we started to be all bubbly when talking and texting on the phone. I, however, couldnt seem to accept the new changes in us. I started to rethink again and again what I just did!? Was I really assure of this? Was I really ready to be tied in commitment? Can I work this out? Gosh what had I just done?

I couldnt think normally. I could feel the guilt covering all over, I was in the border of confusion. I saw him all happy and excited. I even asked my bestfriend, whom happen to know everything (of course. What are bestfriends for?), what her opinion on this. She said I need to give it a time, I couldnt simply make a rush decision and later regret it. I should give a try, if it works out, then I may just proceed.

Enough of 3 days, that I finally sure of what I chose, and decided to give it a chance. (At least 3 days is better than 1). We are now officially declared being together as boyfriend-girlfriend lmao.

So, what I’m tryna emphasize here is, we human, cant declare feelings in a moment or two, seriously. We have to go through few stages, get to know and get used to it for some time, until you really feel it before saying it. I know a relationship normally based on love, the feeling that’s the most important. But sometimes, we dont need all that to get an A in calculus class, right? Okaaay you might say the subject is all about theory and calculation, whilst love is all about sensitivity and feelings. I know I know, but dont you think in order to get an A in calculus also requires an interest?

Dont tell me you never heard of calculus and have no idea what is ax+by=c but later decided to take the subject and score for it, do you? You must, at least have learnt and seen it during your primary school. You started to flip pages of numbers and equations, learn how to use calculator, when after quite some time, you get the idea of what it actually is, before decided to take it as your core subject. Likewise, when I decided to be with him, at first is because I see him as an interesting man, I really had fun companied by him, and eager to know him better. The love comes eventually, slowly it conquers.

Score an A in calculus, and be in true love relationship, applies the same formula.